Sorry for the late comment guys, I was eating my third dinner. I have been putting that meal off in order to try to lose weight for the longest time, but my doctor told me that at this point theres no reason to even try and make ammends with my weight. He said the work I would need to do in order to reverse the damage is so great that I would probably die from stress induced illness. He recommended I just eat whatever I want and hope every day that my heart does not beat its final beat.  

Guys my weight problem is really starting to get to me these days. When I wake up in the morning I am finding it physically and mentally hard to get out of bed and Im starting to wish that I was not crippled with this eating disorder. I believe that it is my parents fault that I am so fat because they use to starve me for days and make me watch them eat half of their meals and throw away the rest while my stomach audbily growled from the closet in which I was confined to. From then on out any chance I had to eat I would, and I would always ask people if they were going to finish their plate at restaurants and eat their food too. My fatness is not only ruining my relationships now, but it is also making it hard to commute to my DnD meetings every friday night where I act as the dungeon master (i get paid), and without that, I am effectively homeless, besides the money I claim from disability from my morbid obesity, hypoglandism, hypoglycemia, diabetes and uglyness (all related to my weight). I really do not know what to do anymore. Also does this site accept WIC or EBT?  

This is me if anyone was wondering   

Does anyone know if these rashguards ride up above your belly while rolling? I am a very large disgusting pig sitting at a weight of about 385 lbs, and anytime I wear rashguards they always ride up above my gut while I am rolling making it really embarrassing and uncomfortable when my shit hangs out.  

Guys update on bringing my black belt to class today - -

Word of advice, do not bring a belt other than the one given to you by your sensei. He wasnt happy that I came in with the black belt because he had given me a white belt (it didnt match my gi very well) and he threw me out of the gym. I am not really sure what to do now, amazon wont even let me return it (black belt) because I spilt food on the belt leaving a stain from the barbecue ribs I was eating. I dont want to stop doing jiu jitsu, it just seems anywhere I go people are just fatphobic.

Also, the shorts are alright I guess, clearly wouldnt fit my waistline, but I mean Id like to think one day I can put the food down and fit into slimmer clothing.  

Guys i dont want to toot my own horn, but I finally got my black belt today :D (so excited). It took a very long time and quite some hard work, but i got that knock on the door today and it was the mailman!!!! he finally brought me my black belt i ordered from amazon! im so excited to go to class tomorrow and show it off!  

Alright... Im not gonna beat around the bush on this one guys. I need help, I need $10,000 tomorrow or else I will not be able to make it to flat earth con this year. Being one of their most loyal members and having gone to every single convention since the conception of the group, I kind of need to be there to make sure that the convention runs smoothly. the total cost for it will be $5,000, but I need the other $5,000 to go to the anime convention that takes place afterwards. Anything will help...
  

I WILL NOT BE TRIFLED WITH!  

Me and spats are a bigggg no no... So apparently if youre diabetic and have hypertension paired with morbid obesity, the heat you produce from rolling is enough to loosen the threads on polyester causing the material to unravel. Needless to say, when I was rolling in no gi wearing just the spat I got very embarrassed when everyone was able to see not only my spaghetti and meatballs, but also my boy hole.